Please give advice how to cope?

I've always been the optimist but life has just gotten to hard to the point i cant anymore, basically to much has happened, i was raped by my bro, molested by a teacher, attempted rape by a guy friend,separateate cab driver incidents where they pulled me on their laps and forced me to make out with them and give them blow jobs and stuff and other incidents.plus i feel its my fault because who else has this happen so many times, but i dont dress or act slutty, i dont get it i got kicked out of school, got involved with the wrong crowd because of all the bad incdients ive had with guys i have no self esteem so any guy that would date me (there were many) i let them take advantage of me because i wanted to feel good about myself but i felt so empty, smoked put and drank, i cheated on my boyfriend. and i cut for a week or so. now my life is a lil better but i still get horrible flashbacks have low self esteem and stuff. my mom was just diagnosed with cancer this week, my parents are afraid of me getting in trouble in college (im almost 19) since i used to do stuff and i get involved with the wrong guys easily so im grounded at home, i have a boyfriend for the last year but sometimes im scared he only likes me for my body and maybe someone else should appreciate me more, i get a lot of invites from guys but i stay with him cause sometimes im scared no one else will want me or love me after all the things that happeend to me. im just in so much emotional pain. advice please. (besides therapy, i am in therapy)Please give advice how to cope?
Hey, you should tell someone, like a friend bout this, especially friends who are older than you. I think you should start carrying pepper spray and learning to defend yourself. When you go out with guys, always make sure there are gfs there to back you up in case something happens. I think you may be too insecure to date at this time and if you're unsure of your bf's intentions, you need to stay single and protect yourself from getting hurt again. You can be friends with him, but most importantly find out what you want in a guy, and take some time to find out what your bf wants from you as his gf. Play the field and don't step down just cuz a guy pressures you, be strong and make the guys fight for your love. Then you can see which guy is real and which guy is fake.